Moving out of the past shadows

It had been difficult..It was not possible without a special person who had shown the way out of the mess that I was in my life 2-3 months earlier. And also, I must state, of another person who helped me to live during those days and always cheered me up that sunny days are not far away. These two, apart from all my other friends and family, have made me want to enjoy my life once more. With one of these two, younger, cheerful, full of love and care, I intend to move on in life and bury the past. Unless..., unless..., history repeats itself in my life...If that happens, I would take leave from the world of relationships forever. The shield that I talked about earlier have kept in my mind that anything is possible in this world and nobody is above belief, including me also.

So I am happily going through motions, enjoying every bit of the attention that I am getting from the girl and giving her back all that I could have possibly given a girl. Earlier I never had the want of togetherness to be so intense. Perhaps then, in the hindsight, that feeling was not mutual. Perhaps now, I don't know whether, finally, this growth of feelings will culminate into something concrete, something better. But I am not very much bothered about it any more. The past experience had brought with it, an air of easy casualness alongwith unsavoury bitterness. Currently the bitterness is being purged out of my system by this girl's sweet demeanours. Casualness remains. I think this is what in the past thinkers have told us to do - To remain unaffected through happiness or sorrow. Perhaps, now, the experience has enriched my life. I came to know so many persons from so close a distance that I feel lucky now that I have had that experience. It is obvious that I could not possibly have written this in such a cheerful fashion without that special girl in my side. I think that I must thank that girl who refused to come to me at the last moment, for without her moving out of my life, I could have never possibly known about this girl.

I am now really enjoying this roller-coaster ride called life.....